There aren’t many days where I crave ADHD medication, but I definitely had one or two them a few weeks ago. These days more often than not coincide with my time of the month (sorry guys, but it does happen) and I’m not sure if it’s because I’m more tired at these times, more hormonal or just irritated. Whatever if it is, my focus ends up being practically non-existent, my window of tolerance is bolted shut and I just want to hibernate.
Of course, life happens whether you want it to stop or not. As such I had to drive to a fostering meet up around this time and even while following a satnav and keeping my eyes firmly on the road, I ended up going the wrong way, not just once but twice adding an extra twenty minutes on to my journey. Luckily the meet up was in a bar so I quickly ordered a bottle of vodka…. jokes…though I did practically neck two cups of coffee for the dopamine hit.
“Coffee helps with my ADHD but too much and it triggers anxiety linked to my dypraxia. I can’t win!”
ADHD gIRL
I always say it was my choice to come off ADHD meds, but that’s only partially true, when I was seventeen, I was told the meds were doing anything for me, so they were just going to stop prescribing them. I always say it was my choice because I think if I’d have been given one, I would have made the same decision. Back then Ritalin used to treat ADHD was only given in its purest form and I hated the way it made me feel; devoid of emotion, focus but without passion. If you know me know, you’d say focus without passion is not me at all.
I have to wonder though, medical progression has happened in the last 19 years since I came off it, so would it still have the same effect now as it did then? As I get older aspects of my ADHD get worse, particularly the brain fog and the memory issues. I just worry what will happen when I hit my fifties, and I’m supposed to get brain fog and memory issues as part of the aging process.
“I’m never going to say never to ADHD medication, but I’ve been off it so long, I’d be worried about going back on it.”
All of this combined makes me question, would I ever revisit taking ADHD medication? Never say never! I mean I’m good for now, but if things continue to progress as they are; as in aging making everything worse, they make come a time when I want to take meds again. The issue being that since I haven’t had a diagnosis since 1998 and been off meds since 2004 then I’m pretty sure they’d have to assess me all over again and I don’t fancy the ten-year weight that comes with that.
Whatever your decision about medication for ADHD, and make no mistake, it is your own decision, I hope you have a wonderful two weeks ADHDers/ Allies.
