It’s amazing how you can have such a false perception of what’s really happening. Sadly, paranoia and ADHD go hand in hand because when you can think of endless possibilities sometimes the lines between reality and perception can get blurred.
I may have taken for granted that I have the world’s best next-door neighbours, one of which includes my very best friend. Ever since I moved in four years ago, I’ve only had to put my bin out probably less than ten times as they always do it for me. The other week my bin hadn’t been emptied because it hadn’t been put out and of course my paranoid brain jumped to the worst; that my best friend was angry with me and I’d done something wrong.
I sent my bestie a message asking her if there was a reason she’d put her bins out and not mine. She said she thought she’d put mine out and again I got paranoid thinking ‘is it that she thinks I’m lazy?’ or ‘would she rather I do it myself’
Anyway last night we touched base properly for the first time in about a week and I found out she’s struggling with some personal stuff at the moment. I felt like a really bad friend because I was so wrapped up in my own paranoia that I hadn’t seen what was really going on?
However, I now feel better and am trying to support her as much as possible. It’s amazing how when you are struggling you trick yourself into thinking everybody else is fine or doing much better than you are. Communication really is the key to overcoming so many obstacles.