Have you ever had those moments where mental exhaustion, meets physical tiredness and emotional depletion? That’s where I’ve been at for the past two weeks and it sucks. Normally I bounce back more quickly, but I’m very bad for not giving myself time to rest or recover.
We all like to think we’re invincible; that we’re so strong that we can keep going and going, but the truth is we bend ourselves too much we break and most of us instead of taking the time to fix ourselves, just learn to live in the brokenness.
The only way I really know that I’m pushing my body too far is when I start to feel sick or rundown, that’s the red light that suggests ‘Woah slow down’ but as anyone who is a parent will tell you, it’s not exactly easy getting some down time.
You really have to drill it in to yourself that ‘I am worthy of a break’ and ‘I deserve kindness’ along with ‘kindness is taking care of myself’ so today once I dropped the kids off at school and I took myself to a really nice cinema to watch Jurassic World: Dominion.
First things first the move was ok-ish, I enjoyed it but it wasn’t quite what I was expecting. The cinema was fantastic as I got to order a cocktail straight to my cinema sit (special treat), and I walked out of that cinema feeling amazing.
It wasn’t particularly the cinema or the movie; it was because I’d planned something for me and I had done it, I had taken care of myself a little and it made me feel even better about myself. Funny how psychology works isn’t it?
The thing is with ADHD is linked to low self-esteem in adulthood, we’ve usually been beaten down by the world and we’re way too hard on our selves than we need to be. Perhaps it would be a better use of our time to think about what good thing we can do for ourselves instead of how bad or disappointing we think we are.
So next time you’re working yourself to the ground, or even if you are being extremely hard on yourself just remind yourself ‘What do I do to show myself that I care about myself?’ or ‘Do I really deserve this?’ The answer just may surprise you.